***On The 50th Anniversary Of The Voting Rights Act-Blowing
In The Wind - With Bob Dylan And The Generation Of ‘68 In Mind
Scene: Girls’ Lounge,
North Clintondale High School, Monday morning before school, late September,
1962. Additional information for those who know not of girls lounges, for
whatever reason. The North Clintondale High School girls’ lounge was reserved
strictly for junior and senior girls, no sophomore girls and, most decidedly,
no freshmen girls need come within twenty feet of the place for any reason,
particularly by accident, under penalty of tumult. It was placed there for the
“elect” to use before school, during lunch, after school, and during the day if
the need arise for bathroom breaks, but that last was well down on the
prerogatives list since any girl can use any other “lav” in the school. No
queen, no lioness ever guarded her territory as fiercely as the junior and
senior girls of any year, not just 1962, guarded the aura of their lounge.
Needless to say the
place was strictly off-limits to boys, although there had been recent talk, 1962
talk, if talk it was, about some girls thinking, or maybe better, wishing, that
boys could enter that hallowed ground, after school enter. Unlike the cigarette
rumor this one while persistent never seemed to have gone anywhere. Moreover after
school most junior or senior girls were either working part-time jobs, heading
home to help mother take of younger children, playing lady-like intramural sports
far away from boy eyes, or, most likely already with some boy in his latest homemade
automobile after a quick run over to North Adamsville Beach. Still that boy rumor
possibility was much more likely than entry by those forlorn sophomore and
freshman girls, lost or not.
Now the reasoning
behind this special girls’ lounge, at least according to Clintondale public
school authority wisdom established so far back no one remembered who started
it, although a good guess was sometime in the Jazz Age, the time of the “lost
generation,” was that junior and senior girls needed some space to attend to
their toilet and to adjust to the other rigors of the girl school day and,
apparently, that fact was not true for the younger girls. So for that “as far
back as can be remembered” junior and senior girls have been using the lounge
for their physical, spiritual, demonic, and other intrigue needs.
Certainly it was not
the décor that they were fierce about. Now the physical set- up of the place,
by 1962 anyway, was that of a rather run-down throne-ante room. Your standard
school, heck, for that matter any public building Ladies’ restroom (remember as
well this was situated in a public school so erase any thoughts of some elegant
woman’s lounge in some fancy downtown Clintondale hotel, some Ritz-ish place);
stalls, three, three sinks complete with oversized mirrors for proper preening,
several paper towel dispensers and a couple of throw away waste paper baskets (and
of course a place to dispense with those monthly napkins) all set off in public
building colors.
Beyond that though
was the lounge area maybe twice the size of the bathroom area which this year
as almost any of the previous ten years contained two old time sofas, a couple
of easy chairs, three end tables filled with magazines, mainly girl-fashion related
magazines from various years and a couple more waste paper baskets. On one long
green wall photographs of previous years of junior and senior girls who were
privileged to sit in this very area. On the other providing some fresh air in
season three very large glass windows with latch opening for ease of use. (Those
windows rumored but only rumored to allow an errant young woman or seven to
puff cigarettes and blow the smoke out into the airs. If the school authorities
ever discovered that such practices went, of if they did, did anything about it
is unclear however those rumors persisted until long after 1962.)
The “charm” of the
place was thus in its exclusivity not its appearance. Come Monday morning, any
school day Monday morning, the ones that counted after hard social weekend of
fending, or not fending off some sidewalk Lothario, and the place was sure to
be jam-packed with every girl with a story to tell, re-tell, or discount as the
case may be. If this had been a Catholic school rather than public it would have
required the full-time services of a senior cleric to absolve all the lies told
on any given Monday morning. Also needless to say, and it took no modern
sociologist, no sociologist of youth culture, post-World War II youth culture, no
one studied in the tribal norms, in the angsts and alienation, to figure it out
in even such an elitist democratic lounge which apparently took it model from ancient
Greek civic life except ruled by young women rather than old men certain
pecking order, or more aptly cliques aplenty.
The most vocal one,
although the smallest, was composed of the “bad” girls, mainly working class,
or lower, mostly Irish and Italian, fathers working in the local shipyard or
the factories that dotted the river, cigarette-smoking, blowing the smoke out
the window this September day as the weather was still good enough to have open
windows. As if the nervous, quick-puff stale smells of the cigarettes were not
permanently etched on the stained walls already, taking no bloodhound to figure
out the No Smoking rule was being violated, violated daily. (Again no action by
school authorities was ever taken while a junior or senior girl was in this sanctuary.)
Oh yes, and those “bad” girls just then were chewing gum, chewing Wrigley’s
double-mint gum, although that ubiquitous habit was not confined to bad girls,
as if that act would take the smell of the cigarette away from their breathes.
One girl, Anna, a usually dour pretty girl, was animatedly talking, without a
seeming hint of embarrassment or concern that others would hear about how her
new boyfriend, a biker from Adamsville who to hear her tell it was an A- Number
One stud, and she “did it” on the Adamsville beach (she put it more
graphically, much more graphically, but the reader can figure that out). And
her listeners, previously somewhat sullen, perked up as she went into the
details, and they started, Monday morning or not, to get a certain glean in
their eyes thinking about the response when they told their own boyfriends
about this one. If they did.
Less vocal, but
certainly not more careful in their weekend doings talk, were the, for lack of
a better term, the pom-pom girls, the school social leaders, the ones who
planned the school dances and such, and put the events together in order to,
no, not to show their superior organizing skills for future resumes as one
might think, but to lure boys, the jock and social boys, into their own
Adamsville beach traps. And not, like Anna and her biker, on any smelly, sandy,
clamshell-filled, stone-wretched beach, blanket-less for chrissakes. Leave that
for the “bad” girls. They, to a girl, were comfortably snuggled up, according
to their whispered stories, in the back seat of a boss ’57 Chevy or other
prestige car, with their honeys and putting it more gingerly than Anna (and
less graphically) “doing it.”
And, lastly, was the
group around Peggy Kelly, not that she was the leader of this group for it had
no leader, or any particular organized form either, but because when we get out
of the smoke-filled, sex talk-filled, hot-air Monday morning before school
North Clintondale junior and senior girls’ lounge we will be following her
around. This group, almost all Irish girls, Irish Catholic girls if that
additional description is needed, of varying respectabilities, was actually
there to attend to their toilet and prepare for the rigors of the girl school day.
Oh yes, after all what is the point of being in this exclusive, if democratic,
lounge anyway, they too were talking in very, very, very quiet tones discussing
their weekend doings, their mainly sexless weekend doings, although at least
one, Dora, was speaking just a bit too cryptically, and with just a little too
much of a glean in her eyes to pass churchly muster.
And what of Peggy?
Well Peggy had her story to tell, if she decided to tell it which she had no
intention of doing that day. She was bothered, with an unfocused bother, but no
question a bother about other aspects of her life, about what she was going to
after high school, about her place in the world than to speak of sex. It was
not that Peggy didn’t like sex, or rather more truthfully, the idea of sex, or
maybe better put on her less confused days, the idea of the idea of sex. Just
this past weekend, Saturday night, although it was a book sealed with seven
seals that she was determined not to speak of, girls’ lounge or not, she had
let Pete Rizzo “feel her up,” put his hands on her breast. No, not skin on
skin, jesus no, but through her buttoned-up blouse. And she liked it. And
moreover, she thought that night, that tossing and turning night, “when she was
ready” she was would be no prude about it. When she was ready, and that is why
she insisted that the idea of the idea of sex was something that would fall
into place. When she was ready.
But as she listened
to the other Irish girls and their half-lies about their weekends, or drifted
off into her own thoughts sex, good idea or not, was not high on her list of
activities just then. Certainly not with Pete. Pete was a boy that she had met
when she was walking at “the meadows,” For those not familiar with the
Clintondale meadows this was a well-manicured and preserved former pasture area
that the town fathers had designated as park, replete with picnic tables,
outdoor barbecue pits, a small playground area and a small restroom (a facility
that made the girls’ lounge at Clintondale High look like one in a downtown hotel
by comparison). The idea was to preserve a little of old-time farm country
Clintondale in the face of all the building going on in town. But for Peggy the
best part was that on any given day no one was using the space, preferring the
more gaudy, raucous and, well, fun-filled Gloversville Amusement Park, a couple
of towns over. So she could roam there freely, and that seemed be Pete’s idea,
as well one day. And that meeting really set up what was bothering Peggy these
days.
Pete was a freshman
at the small local Gloversville College. Although it was small and had been,
according to Pete, one of those colleges founded by religious dissidents,
Protestant religious dissidents from the mainstream Protestantism of their day,
it was well-regarded academically (also courtesy of Pete). And that was Pete’s
attraction for Peggy, his ideas and how he expressed them. They fit right in
with what Peggy had been bothered by for a while. Things that could not be
spoken of in girls’ lounge, or maybe even thought of there. Things like what to
do about the black civil rights struggle that was burning up the television
every night. Pete was “heading south” next summer he said. (That term of youthful
political art signifying that he would be taking a bus, or maybe as part of a
carload, and head for hellish Alabama or goddam Mississippi to aid the besieged
black civil rights fighters in one of the programs drawn up by one of the increasingly
active Northern campus activist coalitions.) They also as youth will talked of
things like were we going to last until next week if the Russians came at us,
or we went after the Russians.
Also things though like
why was she worried every day about her appearance and why she, like an
addiction, always, always, made her way to the girls’ lounge to “make her face”
as part of the rigors of the girl school day. And that whole sex thing that was
coming, and she was glad of it, just not with Pete, Pete who after all was just
too serious, too much like those commissars over in Russia, although she liked
the way he placed his hands on her. And she was still thinking hard on these
subjects as she excused herself from the group as she put the final touches of
lipstick on. Just then the bell rang for first period, and she was off into the
girl day.
Scene: Boys’ “Lav,”
Second Floor, Clintondale High School, Monday morning before school, September,
1962. (Not necessarily the same Monday morning as the scene above but some
Monday after the first Monday, Labor Day, in September. In any case even if it
was the same Monday as the one above that coincidence does not drive this
story, other more ethereal factors do.) Additional information for those who
know not of boys’ lavs, for whatever reason. The Clintondale High School boys’
rest rooms, unlike the girls’ lounge mentioned above at North, or where a
similar rule applied to the girls’ lounge at Clintondale, was open to any boy
in need of its facilities, even lowly, pimply freshmen as long as they could
take the gaffe. Apparently Clintondale high school boys, unlike the
upperclassmen girls needed no special consideration for their grooming needs in
order to face the schoolboy day.
Well, strictly
speaking that statement about a truly democratic boys’ lav universe was not
true. The first floor boys’ lav down by the woodworking shop was most strictly
off limits, and had been as far back as anyone could remember, maybe
Neanderthal times, to any but biker boys, badass corner boys, guys with big
chips on their shoulders and the wherewithal to keep them there , and assorted
other toughs. No geeks, dweebs, nerds, guys in plaid shirts and loafers with or
without pennies inserted in them, or wannabe toughs, wannabe toughs who did not
have that wherewithal to maintain that chip status need apply. And none did,
none at least since legendary corner boy king (Benny’s Variety Store version),
“Slash” Larkin, threw some misdirected freshman through a work-working shop
window for his mistake. Ever since every boy in the school, every non-biker,
non-corner boy, or non-tough had not gone within fifty yards of that lav, even
if they took shop classes in the area. And a “comic” aspect of every year’s
freshman orientation was a guided finger to point out which lav NOT to use, and
that window where that freshman learned the error of his ways. No king, no lion
ever guarded his territory as fiercely as the “bad” boys did. Except, maybe,
those junior and senior Clintondale girls of any year, and not just 1962, as
they guarded their lounge lair.
That left the boys’
rooms on the second floor, the third floor, the one as you entered the
gymnasium, and the one outside of the cafeteria for every other boy’s use. A
description, a short description, of these lavs is in order. One description
fits all will suffice; a small room, with stalls, sinks, mirrors, etc the same
as found in any rest room in any public building in the country. Additionally,
naturally, several somewhat grimy, stained (from the “misses”) urinals. What
draws our attention to the second floor boys’ room this day are two facts.
First, this rest room is in the back of the floor away from snooping teachers’
eyes, ears and noses and has been known, again for an indeterminate time, as
the place where guys could cadge a smoke, a few quick puffs anyway, on a
cigarette and blow the smoke out the back window, rain or shine, cold or hot
weather. So any guy of any class who needed his fix found his way there. And
secondly, today, as he had done almost every Monday before school since
freshman year John Prescott and friends have held forth there to speak solemnly
of the weekend’s doing, or not doings. To speak of sex, non-sex, and more often
than seemed possible, of the girl who got away, damn it.
Of course,
egalitarian democratic or not, even such drab places as schoolboy rest rooms
have their pecking orders, and the second floor back tended to eliminate
non-smoking underclassmen, non-smokers in general, serious intellectual types,
non-jocks, non-social butterflies, and non-plaid shirt and loafer boys. And Johnny
Prescott, if nothing else was the epitome of the plaid shirt and loafer crowd.
And just like at that up-scale North Clintondale girls’ lounge come Monday
morning, any school day Monday morning, the ones that count, and the place was
sure to be jam-packed with every plaid-shirted, penny-loafered boy with a story
to tell, re-tell, or discount as the case may be. Also needless to say, and it
took no modern sociologist, no sociologist of youth culture, post-World War II
youth culture, to figure it out in even such a smoky democratic setting there
was a certain standardized routine-ness to these Monday mornings. And that
routine-ness, the very fact of it, is why John Prescott draws our attention on this
day.
And if Johnny was the
king of his clique for no other reason than he was smart, but not too smart,
not intellectual smart, or showing it any way, that he was first to wear plaid
and loafers and not be laughed at, and he had no trouble dating girls, many
notched girls, which was the real sign of distinction in second floor lav, he
was nevertheless a troubled plaid-ist.
No, not big troubled,
but, no question, troubled. Troubled about this sex thing, and about having to
have the notches to prove it, whether, to keep up appearances, you had to lie
about it or not when you struck out as happened to Johnny more times than he
let on (and as he found out later happened to more guys more often than not).
Troubled about political stuff like what was going on down in the South with
those black kids taking an awful beating every day as he saw on television
every freaking night. And right next store in Adamsville where some kids,
admittedly some intellectual goof kids, were picketing Woolworth’s every
Saturday to let black people, not in Adamsville because there were no blacks in
Adamsville, or Clintondale for that matter, but down in Georgia, eat a cheese
sandwich in peace at a lunch counter and he thought he should do something
about that too, except those intellectual goofs might goof on him.
And big, big issues
like whether we were going to live out our lives as anything but mutants on
this planet what with the Russian threatening us everywhere with big bombs, and
big communist one-size-fits- all ideas. Worst, though were the dizzying
thoughts of his place in the sun and how big it would be. Worse, right now worse
though was to finish this third morning cigarette and tell his girl, his third
new girl in two months, Julie James, that he needed some time this weekend to
just go off by himself, “the meadows” maybe, and think about the stuff he had
on his mind.
*******
Scene: Clintondale
Meadows, late September 1962. The features of the place already described
above, including its underutilization. Enter Johnny Prescott from the north,
plaid shirt, brown loafers, no pennies on this pair, black un-cuffed chinos,
and against the winds of late September this year his Clintondale High white
and blue sports jacket won for his athletic prowess in sophomore year. Theodore
White’s The Making Of A President-1960 in hand. Enter from the south Peggy
Kelly radiant in her cashmere sweater, her just so full skirt, and her black
patent leather shoes with her additional against the chill winds red and black
North Clintondale varsity club supporter sweater. James Baldwin’s Go Tell It
On The Mountain in hand. Johnny spied Peggy first, makes an initial
approach as he did to most every girl every chance he got, but noticed, noticed
at a time when such things were important in Clintondale teen high school live
the telltale red and black sweater, and immediately backed off. Peggy noticing
Johnny’s reaction puts her head down. A chance encounter goes for not.
****
That is not the end
of the story though. Johnny and Peggy will “meet” again, by chance, in the Port
Authority Bus Station in New York City in the early summer of 1964 as they,
along with other recent high school graduates and current college students- “head south.”
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