The Angel Of Mercy, Redux-With Rory Block’s Angel Of Mercy In Mind

From The Pen Of Sam Lowell

“Frankie, I ain’t feelng so good, need a little something to calm my nerves down, get me back on top, get be back to being your sweet loving lady, your sweet Lorraine,” Marybeth Dolan said to her latest lover man Frankie, Frankie Malone, whom she had met about a year before when she was feeling blue and had gone out to Skipper’s Bar &Grille over on Division, that’s Chi town for the gyps, to have a few drinks, maybe pick up a guy for the night, maybe more she wasn’t that picky that night when she had her wanting habits on that way, when she needed a man in her bed to stop the crazy feeling she got when she didn’t have a man around.

She had seen Frankie around, around Division, remember in Chi town,  and around Skipper’s before, Skipper’s her home away from home when she wanted a man, heard he was “connected” to Lance Kelly, the big guy in the dope scene and who knows what else and as she was strictly a whiskey drinker she kind of passed him by, kind of brushed him off her dance card even if he was pretty good looking, and looked like he might be good in the saddle, her saddle. Heard too though that he had been hung up on junk, H, horse, whatever the guys at Skipper’s called it to show they were hip, or something after he got back from Iraq, back the first time in 2005 but had gone “cold turkey” and kept off the stuff as far as she knew.           

That first night they met she had gone into Skipper’s with her best red “come hither” dress on (some girlfriend had told her when she was just a girl, just starting to figure out guys, started wanting to figure out guys that red was the primo color to attract guys who were looking to score with girls, red come hither dresses seemed to work the best), sat down on a stool at the bar and ordered her regular drink, Chivas on the rocks, from Benny the bartender who sometimes when the place was not busy would have her drink ready as he spied her coming in the door, although not this night when the place was crowded since Eddie Clearwater, the old time electric blues guy who played with Magic Jim back in the day was performing on the small stage in the back room and he always drew a crowd.

Frankie had been sitting a few seats down when he first noticed her but since the seat next to hers was clear he came up to the empty seat and asked if anybody was sitting there. After the obvious “no” he asked if she wanted a drink, she said “no” since she already had a drink in front of her and thought that would be that. Instead Frankie said in a low murmur so nobody else would hear, “I’ve seen you in here before, seen you with Lenny Price a few times, and then lately by yourself. What did you do, get old Lenny the brush-off?” “No,” she answered starting to think that very subtle thought that this guy was trying to pick her up and that might not be so bad, might be very if he was off the junk like she had heard, “Lenny drifted out West somewhere, left me high and dry if you want to know, and good riddance since the guy was going nowhere and wasn’t that good a lover anyway.” That last part startled Frankie a little as he replied, “I’m a guy going somewhere, I’m a guy who you might want to get to know,” looking her up and down. Marybeth blushed her always Irish Catholic novena rosary bead blush which came up whenever a guy was giving her the sexy treatment although she had long ago given up her maidenhead, quaint word, and the Church.

Then Marybeth said, “Well, maybe I might if you are clean these days.” Frankie turned his head back away from her as if to say that how did she know that, and why, and answered, “Yeah, I’m clean, clean as jaybird although it wasn’t something I wanted to do, no way.” And thus started the love affair between one Francis Malone and one Marybeth Dolan, both to the Church born but now wayward sinners as she took him to her small studio apartment later that night after they had talked, danced a couple of slow ones when Eddie was finishing his last set and had closed the joint.                         

And so it went along for a couple of months they alternating between her place and Frankie’s room, efficiencies they call them in Chi town with a small kitchenette and half shower bathroom but really one big room, so room, going out to eat supper at various spots, some ritzy like The Four Winds, some just plain apple America steamed Wagon Wheel Diner when their appetites were up (usually after sex and she had performed a few tricks on him, “played the flute,” she called the trick which both agreed no self-respecting Irish Catholic girl should even know about less be able to do, to get down her throat that far although both laughed when she said from Frankie’s very limp penis he was glad that she did know and he just smiled the smile of a guy who knew he could get her to do that trick whenever he wanted), Skipper’s when the place had live music playing and just kind of going along.

Then one night, one Saturday night when they were in Frankie’s room after drinking night away at the Sunset Club over near the Loop Frankie suggested they try a little something for the head, some righteous cocaine, girl, cousin he called it. Marybeth was confused, wasn’t sure that what Frankie meant was junk, heroin that he was offering her. So Marybeth asked what the hell was going on she thought he was off the stuff, off of heroin. Frankie laughed a sly laugh and said, “Yeah, I’m off that stuff but a guy needs a little something for the head to even out after tough days and so a little sniff, a couple of snorts gets me right. Besides its not addictive, really.” For some reason known only to her, a reason she would search for over the next few months she took him at his word. Furthermore she was just drunk enough to want to stay high, wanted some “kicks” to go with their love-making, see where that led. See if it make it easier to “play the flute,” not that Frankie wanted that steady and sometimes when she was drinking too much she had trouble gagging for some reason. Frankie took out his packet of white dust, grabbed a small plate from his kitchen cabinet and started crushing the stuff up with a razor. Then he took a dollar bill out of his pocket and roll it up to make a straw and say “Ladies, first” after explaining to Marybeth that you had hold the dollar bill straw to your nose and inhale through your nose. She did so and after taking a hit started to cough a little. Then she said she felt funny in her stomach and Frankie said that was natural as the cocaine dissolved. He told her to take another hit to cool her out. The second inhalation was not so bad and kind of made her horny. Made her want Frankie, who said just take another hit and I’ll take a few and we will hit the sheets. That night Marybeth had some of the best sex of her life, had an orgasm or thought she did, screamed through their love-making enough.

For the next few months almost every time Frankie and Marybeth made love they had got going by doing a few lines, a few more each time although nobody was counting. Then one day a couple of months back Marybeth went into the bureau drawer where Frankie kept his stash opened the packet and set herself up a few lines to chase the blues away. That is what she told Frankie when he asked whether she had opened his stash or not, had said yes and then quickly asked if he wanted her to “play the flute” to get his mind off of her invading his stash. This went on a few more times when Marybeth said she was feeling blue before Frankie started to keep his stash outside the rooming house. He would bring just enough to keep her from feeling blue if she asked or if they were making love which was less frequent these days.     

Then this night, this lowdown night when Marybeth pleaded with him to give her a few lines Frankie for the first time realized, or maybe realized was too strong a word that Marybeth was getting too crazy on the stuff and he told her she would have to give it up, give it up just like he had kicked junk. She begged, pleaded with him, told him she would let him chain her to the bedpost and do what he wanted to her which she had previously refused to do as being too kinky, as not being sex but a perversion, if he would only make her well. Then she started jabbering loudly and Frankie could only calm her down a little by saying he would go get his stash. She cried out after him as he left, Oh Frankie, you are my angel of mercy, you are my guardian angel.” As Frankie walked down the stairs he shook his head in disgust, some angel of mercy.