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Entering North Adamsville High Redux , Circa 1960
By Allan Jackson
[Not all of the sketches in the rock
and roll series were triggered by music, the corner boy scene, or by
remembrances of Markin although they did provide the bulk of material. Some
things obviously we triggered by later events such as this one dealing with the
first kind of scary day of high school after being cocooned in junior high (now
middle school most places) and elementary school. Having to deal with a bigger
universe of kids you didn’t know from other feeder schools and such. Of course
there are certain progressions some of us had to follow from elementary to
junior high to high school and then college each with its own set of hurdles
and promises. None which would necessarily stir memories except as detailed
below for an outside factor-here the upcoming class reunion which triggered
these thoughts about the first day of school at North Adamsville High in 1960.
That is an important year for a lot of
reasons but only a few months into the school Jack Kennedy our own Irish Jack
Kennedy got elected President of the United States (in today truncated lingo
POTUS). That is important maybe not to the start of the story which is pretty
convenient about first day jitters and where your place in the sun of high
school pecking orders would be but the start of what Markin, the Scribe, would
start yakking about incessantly-the fresh breeze coming to the land. It was
while it lasted called Camelot in the beginning with all the promise that
meant. And while things did not go according to plan exactly Scribe’s fresh
breeze did carry him, us for a while.
But first getting through the dream
world of poor boys, cars, girls, more girls, cars, no money hell you get what
it was all about except girls can give their own spins on their times. Allan
Jackson]
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A few years ago, maybe four or five
now, around the time that Frank Jackman (always Frank and not Francis since
that was too much like that St Francis who was good to animals and stuff and no
self-respecting corner boy wanted that tagged to his name besides the formal
name sounded kind of faggy (that was the term of “art” then among macho corner
boys in our neighborhood now gay) e when the guys talked about names one night,
also not Frankie since that name was taken up in his crowd) by Frankie Riley
(always Frankie and not Francis for the same reason as Frank but also Frankie
because he had always been called Frankie since time immemorial to distinguish
him from his father Frank, Sr.) his Jack Slack’s bowling alleys corner boy
chieftain all through high school in North Adamsville had been commemorating,
maybe better to say comparing notes, on their fiftieth anniversary of entry
into that school in the ninth grade Frank had written a remembrance of the
first day of school freshman year. He had written it at the behest of a female
fellow classmate, Dora, for a class website where she was the webmaster that
she and a few others had established so that those from the Class of 1964 who
wished to, those who were able to, could communicate with each other in the new
dispensation of cyberspace.
That remembrance, one of a series of
sketches that he eventually did, and on recent inquiry from Jimmy Jenkins
another classmate and ex-corner boy comrade, Frank has stated that he stood by
that “sketch” characterization, centered on the anxieties that he had on that
first day about making a brand new impression on the freshman class, about
changing his junior high school quasi-“beatnik” style, his two thousand fact
barrage that he would lay on anybody who would listen. A style change that lots
of guys and gals have gone through when faced with a new situation, although
the people he was trying to impress had already been his classmates in that
junior high school and were painfully aware of the previous way that he had
presented himself, presented himself
under Frankie’s direction, to the world. When Frankie at the time read
what Frank had written, a thing filled with new found sobbing, weeping, and
pious innocence he sent him an e-mail which brought Frank up short. Frankie
threatened in no uncertain terms to write his own “sketch” refuting all the
sobbing, weeping, piously innocent noise that Frank had been trying to
bamboozle their fellow classmates with. The key point that Frankie threatened
to bring down on a candid world, the candid world in this instance being the
very curious Dora for one, and her coterie of friends who had stayed in contact
since high school since they all lived in the area, to be clear about was the
case of Frank Jackman and one Lydia Stevenson. Or rather the case, the love-bug
case he had for her. That, and not some mumble-jumble about changing his act
which he never really did since you could always depend on Frank going on and
on with one of his two thousand arcane facts that he tried to impress every
girl he ran across in high school with and to dress like he had just come
walking in from post-beat Harvard Square, was the very real point of what was
aggravating him on that long ago hot endless first Wednesday after Labor Day
morning.
See Frank had gotten absolutely nowhere
with Lydia, nowhere beyond the endless talking stage, and thus nowhere, in
junior high but he was still carrying the torch come freshman year and fifty
years later he still felt that fresh-scented breathe and that subtle perfume,
or bath soap, or whatever it was she wore, breezing over him. Or maybe her
curse, a North Adamsville curse that he claimed at one point that Lydia cast on
him since he never had then a girlfriend from school, or from North Adamsville
for that matter. Not in high school anyway. The currency of that fresh breeze
that occupied his mind may have been pushed forward by his getting back in
touch with classmates. And as fate would have it, the thrice-married Frank,
never one to say never to love had as a result of getting back in touch with
classmates on the website had a short fruitless affair with another classmate,
Laura, who had been a close friend of Lydia’s in junior high school and told
him a couple of things about what Lydia had thought about Frank. Laura
confirmed that Lydia had expected Frank to ask her out in junior high school
but also confirmed by that failed affair with Laura that Lydia’s curse was
still at work fifty years later. And it is that missed opportunity to fall
under the sway of that Lydia scent that will drive this short sketch, hell,
forget Frank and his sketch business, this short piece.
This is the way Frank described to me
what happened after Frankie sent that fatal e-mail that might expose his long
hidden thoughts:
“Frankie, for once listened patiently
as I finished my story, the one that he say was filled to the brim with
sobbing, weeping, whining bull about starting anew and being anxious about what
would happen, and which he threatened to go viral on, immediately after I was
finished let out with a
“Who are you kidding Jackman that is not the way you
told me the story back then.” Then he went on. “I remember very well what you
were nervous about. What that cold night sweats, that all-night toss and turn
teen angst, boy version, had been about and it wasn’t first day of school
jitters. It was nothing but thinking about her. That certain "she"
that you had kind of sneaked around mentioning as you had been talking, talking
your his head off about filling out forms, getting books, and other weird
noises, just to keep the jitters down. The way you told it then, and I think
you called me up right after school was out to discuss the matter, was that
while on those pre-school steps you had just seen her, seen her with the other
North Adamsville junior high girls on the other side of the steps, and got all
panicky, got kind of red-faced about it, and so you are going to have to say a
little something about that. And if you don’t I will.”
Frankie continued along this line,
stuff which seemed to be true but which made me wonder how a guy who when we
met at the Sunnyville Grille over in Boston for a few drinks to discuss this
and that, not the Lydia thing but our corner boy exploits, couldn’t remember
where he left his car keys and we had to call AAA to come out and find them on
his driver’s side seat. Jesus. Here’s
what he was getting at:
“See, I know the previous school year,
late in the eighth grade at North Adamsville Junior High, toward the end of the
school year you had started talking to that Lydia Stevenson in art class. Yes,
that Lydia who on her mother’s side was from some branch of the Adams family
who had run the jagged old ship-building town there in North Adamsville for
eons and who had employed my father and a million other fathers, and I think
yours’ too if I am not mistaken, for a while anyway, around there and then just
headed south, or to Greece or someplace like that, for the cheaper labor I
heard later. She was one of the granddaughters or some such relation I never
did get it all down. And that part was not all that important anyway because
what mattered, what mattered to you, was that faint scent, that just barely
perceivable scent, some nectar scent, that came from Lydia when you sat next to
her in art class and you two talked, talked your heads off.
“But you never did anything about it,
not then anyway although you said when we talked later about it you had this
feeling, maybe just a feeling because you wanted things to be that way but a
feeling anyway, that she had expected you to ask her out. Asking out for junior
high school students then, and for freshmen in high school too because we
didn’t have licenses to drive cars, being the obligatory "first date"
at Jimmy Jack's Shack (no, not the one off Adamsville Boulevard, that's for the
tourists and old people, the one on Hancock up toward the Square is the one I
am talking about). You said you were just too shy and uncertain to do it.
“Why? Well you said it was because you
came from the “wrong side of the tracks” in the old town, over by the old
abandoned Old Colony tracks and she, well like I said came from a branch of the
Adams family that lived over on Elm in one of those Victorian houses that the
swells are crazy for now, and I guess were back then too. That is when you
figured that if you studied up on a bunch of stuff, stuff that you liked to
study anyway, then come freshman year you just might be able to get up the
nerve to ask her to go over to Jimmy Jack's for something to eat and to listen
to the jukebox after school someday like every other Tom, Dick and Harry did
then.
“.... So don’t tell me suddenly, a bell
rang, a real bell, students, like lemmings to the sea, were on the move,
especially those junior high kids that you had nodded to before as you took
those steps, two at a time. And don’t tell me it was too late then to worry
about style, or anything else. Or make your place in the sun as you went along,
on the fly. No, it was about who kind of brushed against you as you rushed up
the stairs and who gave you one of her biggest faintly-scented smiles as you
both raced up those funky granite steps. Yeah, a place in the sun, sure.”
And so there you had Frank satisfying
Frankie enough with his agreement to make public on the class website the gist
of his stubborn e-mail. Funny though as much time as they spent talking about
it back in the day and then when they resurrected it a few years ago Frank
never did get to first base Lydia in high school, although she sent him a few
more of those big faintly-scented smiles which Frank didn’t figure out until
too late. Within a couple of weeks of the school opening Lydia was seen hand in
hand with Paul Jones, a sophomore then, the guy who would lead North Adamsville
to two consecutive division football championships and who stayed hand in hand
with him until she graduated. Frank had had a few girlfriends in high school,
Harvard Square refugees like himself who went crazy for his two thousand facts
but they were not from the town. The few times Frank did try to get dates in
school or in town, get to first base, he was shot down for all kinds of
reasons, a couple of times because he did not have a car and the girls had not
the slightest interest in walking around on a date, a couple of times he was
just flat stood up when the girls he was to date took the next best thing
instead. Yeah, the Lydia hex sure did him in. And after that Laura disaster
don’t say he wasn’t jinxed, just don’t say it around him.
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